My Reluctance to Use Psychiatric Medication

I have continuously switched back and forth from being medicated to trying life on my own, with varying results due to depression and anxiety from abuse. While some days are better than others, one prominent element in my life has made it clear; psychiatric medication helps me. However, this may not always be the case with some individuals. For many years, doctors prescribed me psychiatric medication that did not help but also worsened my anxiety and depression symptoms. Thankfully, I have found a balance and a workable solution despite my reluctance to take psychiatric medication. 

Some Are Reluctant to Take Psychiatric Medications

Unfortunately, I was that person that refused medication for many years. I struggled to regulate my emotions and continuously felt overwhelmed and drowning in everyday life. I believed that drugs would make me numb or keep me from adequately functioning each day. A few select times, I did seek help from my family doctor and tried different types of psychiatric medication. But because the trial-and-error period can be bumpy, having no success reinforced my thoughts that medication would not help me. Therefore, I continued to struggle with no hope of feeling better. 

Having a Support System for Abuse Victims 

I am lucky enough to have a supportive group of friends around me. Many of these individuals talk openly about mental health, coping strategies, and helpful resources. One friend, in particular, was my sounding board for many years. As I would describe my panic attacks or overwhelming anxiety, she would offer suggestions and urge me to talk to a doctor or mental health professional. 

Although it took me several years to follow her advice, she was always there as a voice of reason and support. Some days she had no answers for me, which is okay too. It's always nice to have someone that just listens when those bad days come. I always felt that she was in my corner throughout this time, cheering me on and supporting me as I tried to navigate my life situations. I am not sure I would be in the place I am today without her support over the years. 

Not All Psychiatric Medications May Work for You: Don't Be Reluctant, Keep Trying

I soon found out that not all psychiatric medications would work for me. What may work for a friend or family member made me drowsy, nauseous, or gave me migraine headaches. I am lucky that I currently have a terrific family doctor who I can talk to, who listens to my concerns, and who genuinely wants to help me. After trying a couple of different types of medications, he found something that provides the results I need and want. 

Finding a balance in psychiatric medication can be tricky. Even medicine that may work well can take some time to determine the correct dose. So I now have open communication with my doctor and regular check-ins with my therapists. This way, if my therapists see a change in me or feel that an increase may be beneficial, we all work together, so I feel better. 

I may not always need medication, but having this option to help me navigate my life and deal with stressful situations is beneficial. Unfortunately, many individuals do not have the support system to guide them for healing. 

I hope that if you are facing anxiety or depression because of facing verbal abuse, you find the support and help you need to heal. It can be a long, lonely road trying to navigate recovery on your own. But with the right people around you and possibly some medication, you can find balance once again and begin to start living life as you should.